I mega-loathe you all.

I don't, I just like that quote.

Anyway... got back a few hours ago, thought I'd just let you all know neither of my planes blew up or whatever.

So...

Can't think of much else that would be interesting or un-negative.

Have a good week.

I'll try and catch up with your blogs and stuff when I can.

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Um, just an update... To elongate this post a bit, I thought I'd include this poem I've been writing for English Ext. I only just finished it, so it's kind of rough at the moment. But yeah, it's just to give a bit of body to the post.

Andddd... just so you know, the poem's entirely fictional.

(And not very good, but that's another story xD)

If only I could tell you the truth for once:
I’m suffering, help me.
I’m drowning, save me.
Limbs flailing, chaos making me blind.
I wish I’d speak up…

The ringing in my ears has stopped.
Now’s my chance –
Speak, speak!
My throat constricts, the words can’t form.
You’re turning; my hand falls through the air where you were.

My lips move noiselessly,
Trying to search for the words
That hide in fear.
I can’t go on,
Pull me up.

But you don’t know.
How could you?
I hide it so well –
Smiling, laughing.
I hate the lies that are so natural to me.

If only I were transparent –
Like a window, like glass.
And you could see for yourself
How unhappy I am.
If only.

But no –
You smile and laugh along with me.
While acid seeps through my veins,
Poisons my tears,
You laugh.

I swear someone reached into my chest
And stole my heart.
There’s nothing there;
No beat, just emptiness.
A gaping black hole where my heart once was.

Are my eyes blue,
Or black?
I can’t tell anymore…
They’re empty, too.
Traitors, illustrating the truth.

My smile feels alien –
It doesn’t look right on my face.
So fake, unnatural.
It’s wrong to lie.
I know that.

But were it any way but this,
Would it be better?
Would I be happier, having you know the truth?
I always wonder,
How you would cope.

Would you cry as I do,
Each and every night?
Would you lose the feelings I have lost,
And with them, lose yourself?
Would I dare test your resilience?

No.
The burden I carry so wearily
Isn’t something I’d put upon you.
It would destroy you,
Fuelled by the innocence you possess.

I have to do this alone.
My mouth shut, my smile wide.
Now’s the time for my acting debut.
I’ve decided to never let you know.
I won’t let you suffer.

Don’t help me.
Don’t save me.
Keep smiling;
I have to do this alone.
For you.

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Fictional.

Bit depressing though, lol.

Alright, that's about it.

<3