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I've got a bit to tell you all...
Okay, I've talked about my nana and pa on this before, right? They're my mum's parents, I've spent so much time with them all my life and so we're really close (even though somebody can get annoying at times).
Well, especially Pa and I (according to Mum I'm his favourite, hehe!) are close because we have a lot to talk about and (I know this is going to sound corny, but) he's like, my hero, kind of. I don't really call people my "hero" because... it sounds corny, but seriously, he is. He's awesome and funny and nice, and he knows card tricks (lol). He's really smart, and a neek but he's one of those super-fit football-playing nerds, if there is such a thing xD He's a doctor and a lecturer AND an author-- a famous one, at that. Also he knows totally random things, like stuff about sailing and the tide and the names of all the reindeers (lmao). I asked him the other week why rain doesn't gather momentum while it's falling and skewer us all and he actually knew the answer.
Okay, go back... 12 years-- I was four, basically (well, almost four). One day my dad picked me up from preschool or something and said, "Nana Pat died." (She was Pa's mother.) And it totally caught me off-guard, and even though the part where he said that is all I can remember of her death, it's still a really prominent memory for me.
Today when Dad picked me up he goes, "Pa's really sick." ...So I got this huge overwhelming feeling of deja vu-- and, obviously, shock, horror, etc.
My grandparents live in Sydney but they own a house in Montenegro, and they go there sometimes for weeks/months at a time. So they've been there for a while, and suddenly we all get told that Pa's in an ICU overseas and they don't know what's wrong with him, but he's really sick. And at work I had to keep myself from bursting into tears and looking like a moron because one of my favourite people in the world could be dying.
He's getting taken to a hospital in Germany tonight and hopefully they can find out what's wrong with him...
But I've never-- apart from with Nana Pat, and that I couldn't fully understand at the time-- known someone (human) close to me that's died.
And I'm really not sure what to do.